new post up on my fiction blog. It's a gloomy day here at school. The sky is somewhat dreary, after the rain. Enjoy the new post.
I'm still figuring out how to link up the two blogs, without you guys having to go through my profile page to get to it. If any of you know a shortcut, please let me know. Thanks :)
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
Monday, October 25, 2010
Happy Birthday to Me!!
Saturday, I turned 23! I know it's not one of the "milestone ages" but it was still a big birthday for me. I stayed here at school for my birthday weekend instead of spending it with family. I hung out with some cool roommates, made cookies, including my fave OATMEAL SCOTCHIES!!. I absolutely love those cookies. This week, it's nose to the grind, what with my senior seminar Major Oral Presentation coming on November 2nd.By that date, I need to not only have the presentation done, but practically the paper in order to have something to put into the presentation. I am nervous as hell with this.
I learned last week that one of the classes I need to take next semester I have to take by arrangement (meaning meet with a professor during their office hours) because they shifted the rotation of that class. It used to be offered only every spring semester, and it's now been shifted to every fall semester. It should be interesting.
My sister's deployment date has been pushed back about 10ish days. That's the military for you. On one hand, I'm glad she doesn't have to leave yet. But on the other hand, I would understand if she just wants to get it over with so she can get back to her son.
Things with the roommate are... going. I got a little bit aggrevate with her this past week. You see, for the majority of this past few weeks, she's been staying at her "surrogate mom's" house, plus she got a new phone. Don't confuse this with being jealous of the new phone, because I'm not. I'm peeved with the fact that she can't seem to adjust the volume on the keyboard of her phone. So whenever she's texting and she has it on loud, it's LOUD. Also, two weeks ago, we had the health and safety inspections at the dorm. She bagged up her trash, but did not take it out. Last week, she was here only through Tuesday afternoon, which when I came back to the dorm room, it REAKED from the trash in those bags. So I texted her to see when she was coming back.. no response. I did this again the next day... I got one response to my multiple texts. So I texted her Thursday asking if it was okay to take her trash out, in case there was stuff in there that she didn't want thrown out, because I noticed dishes and utensils in the bags, along with empty tuna cans/pouches. She also had a ravioli dish sitting on her desk, along with the can that both had remnants in it. They both were molding over! So I took the dish downstairs and soaked it enough to get the molded food out of it, and threw her trash away, dishes and all. It was not my responsibility to dig through her trash to get her dishes out of it. I had even given her an extra day after she gave me permission to throw it out in case she remembered there were dishes in there.
She came back tonight. This is the first time I've seen her in the room since Tuesday morning when she woke me up at 5:30AM (she was getting ready for work). This brings me to one of my other aggravation. Her job at the school has her getting up at 5:30 in the morning. We've talked several times, with me asking her to please try to be quiet in the morning, since I don't have to get up at that hour (my earliest class during the week is 9am, so the earliest I need to get up is 7:30ish), along with please shut the room door all the way, even though it is difficult. I get it's hard to shut the door quietly if it's to be shut all the way since the maintenance request the RA supposedly put in two weeks ago still has yet to be out through (along with the downstairs girls bathroom getting the light bulbs-- they're showering in pitch black since all the bulbs blew out!) I conceded that I don't care if the door is loud, and yet every time I go to get up in the morning the door is open if she's been there that morning.
I have not spoken more than 5minutes worth of conversation with her since she got back. The most we talked was her asking me what I did this weekend, with me responded drinking... and celebrating my BIRTHDAY (even with facebook notifications- multiple mutual friends writing on my wall-, it took me telling her this past weekend was my birthday to get a half-hearted "happy birthday" from her") Since then, there's been a wall of silence from both of us. I really am not that miffed, though I don't really like the creepy looks over her shoulder at me while she was on her computer. But whatever.
I've made some strides in looking into possible post-graduation jobs at animal shelters around my hometown. I figure I'll need to volunteer at them for awhile, so they'll know firsthand of my knowledge of handling animals besides Earl. Then when a job I'm qualified for opens up, I apply and hope for the best. This doesn't mean I won't go for a job at the zoo, or at Chase or any other place, but that's where I really want to be- making a difference with animals. All but one of the dogs from my childhood have been adopted from a shelter. Lexie we got from a family friend. Dudley we got from Knox county ( I believe, they had a booth at the Centerburg fair) and Earl we got from Franklin county. Any dog or cat I get on my own in the future (once I'm out of my parents house that is) will be a shelter animal.
Well, it's about time for me to get off her for the night.I know I ask this question a lot, but does anyone know of any good blogs out there? Many of the ones I read have gone on hiatus, so I'm in search for a good read.
I learned last week that one of the classes I need to take next semester I have to take by arrangement (meaning meet with a professor during their office hours) because they shifted the rotation of that class. It used to be offered only every spring semester, and it's now been shifted to every fall semester. It should be interesting.
My sister's deployment date has been pushed back about 10ish days. That's the military for you. On one hand, I'm glad she doesn't have to leave yet. But on the other hand, I would understand if she just wants to get it over with so she can get back to her son.
Things with the roommate are... going. I got a little bit aggrevate with her this past week. You see, for the majority of this past few weeks, she's been staying at her "surrogate mom's" house, plus she got a new phone. Don't confuse this with being jealous of the new phone, because I'm not. I'm peeved with the fact that she can't seem to adjust the volume on the keyboard of her phone. So whenever she's texting and she has it on loud, it's LOUD. Also, two weeks ago, we had the health and safety inspections at the dorm. She bagged up her trash, but did not take it out. Last week, she was here only through Tuesday afternoon, which when I came back to the dorm room, it REAKED from the trash in those bags. So I texted her to see when she was coming back.. no response. I did this again the next day... I got one response to my multiple texts. So I texted her Thursday asking if it was okay to take her trash out, in case there was stuff in there that she didn't want thrown out, because I noticed dishes and utensils in the bags, along with empty tuna cans/pouches. She also had a ravioli dish sitting on her desk, along with the can that both had remnants in it. They both were molding over! So I took the dish downstairs and soaked it enough to get the molded food out of it, and threw her trash away, dishes and all. It was not my responsibility to dig through her trash to get her dishes out of it. I had even given her an extra day after she gave me permission to throw it out in case she remembered there were dishes in there.
She came back tonight. This is the first time I've seen her in the room since Tuesday morning when she woke me up at 5:30AM (she was getting ready for work). This brings me to one of my other aggravation. Her job at the school has her getting up at 5:30 in the morning. We've talked several times, with me asking her to please try to be quiet in the morning, since I don't have to get up at that hour (my earliest class during the week is 9am, so the earliest I need to get up is 7:30ish), along with please shut the room door all the way, even though it is difficult. I get it's hard to shut the door quietly if it's to be shut all the way since the maintenance request the RA supposedly put in two weeks ago still has yet to be out through (along with the downstairs girls bathroom getting the light bulbs-- they're showering in pitch black since all the bulbs blew out!) I conceded that I don't care if the door is loud, and yet every time I go to get up in the morning the door is open if she's been there that morning.
I have not spoken more than 5minutes worth of conversation with her since she got back. The most we talked was her asking me what I did this weekend, with me responded drinking... and celebrating my BIRTHDAY (even with facebook notifications- multiple mutual friends writing on my wall-, it took me telling her this past weekend was my birthday to get a half-hearted "happy birthday" from her") Since then, there's been a wall of silence from both of us. I really am not that miffed, though I don't really like the creepy looks over her shoulder at me while she was on her computer. But whatever.
I've made some strides in looking into possible post-graduation jobs at animal shelters around my hometown. I figure I'll need to volunteer at them for awhile, so they'll know firsthand of my knowledge of handling animals besides Earl. Then when a job I'm qualified for opens up, I apply and hope for the best. This doesn't mean I won't go for a job at the zoo, or at Chase or any other place, but that's where I really want to be- making a difference with animals. All but one of the dogs from my childhood have been adopted from a shelter. Lexie we got from a family friend. Dudley we got from Knox county ( I believe, they had a booth at the Centerburg fair) and Earl we got from Franklin county. Any dog or cat I get on my own in the future (once I'm out of my parents house that is) will be a shelter animal.
Well, it's about time for me to get off her for the night.I know I ask this question a lot, but does anyone know of any good blogs out there? Many of the ones I read have gone on hiatus, so I'm in search for a good read.
Thursday, October 14, 2010
Fast train to Stressville
With last week, there came a realization-- my sister will be deploying in around 20 days. As much as I wish I could be there, I unfortunately have a senior seminar paper presentation the last day any of us will see her before she deploys. Since her husband is already overseas, the guardianship of their little boy will be split between my parents and her in-laws. It's kindof a dual- grandparenting, if you will.
The next year or so is going to be a stressful one. Not only with that situation, but with the fact that in the next year, I will have graduated from school and be working to move out of my parents house, get a long-term job, etc. here's to hoping that the stress I feel while being in school dissipates substantially once I graduate. I do realize though the stress will be replaced somewhat with other stresses, such as paying student loans and other things.
Last weekend I went home, had a dentist appointment (found a cavity sadly) and stopped at Half-Price Books. This bookstore, the last time I had any contact with Mike, was where he worked. We have dissolved that friendship since then, so I was a little nervous about going in there, in case he was working. I pulled into the parking lot, and didn't see his car, so I was relieved. HOWEVER, I was in the romance fiction section in the front and hear a familiar voice coming from the back of the store (the area where you sell books to the store). I recognized it immediately as his. I mouthed "F***!" I had a little bit of a mental freak out to tell the truth. It kind of put a damper on the trip to the store, seeing as it would have been awkward if I was to go into the young adult section right next to the sell counter in the back. I have not seen him since before dissolving the friendship sadly.
Do I miss the friendship? Absolutely. But do I think that we could ever possibly get that friendship back? I'm not so sure. What I mean by this is in high school we had many similarities. As we've grown up, we've branched off from those similarities, to the point where the foundation isn't as strong anymore. I miss having the male sounding board, the shoulder to cry on, the friend I could just hang out and be myself and not feel I need to act a certain way. In the past year, a lot of friendships I've had have "parted ways" if you will. Mainly because it was a friendship out of association. Without those associations, there was cordiality, but no real friendship base. You could say instead of having a large amount of friends that most are not very solid, I have a small core group of friends that are solid and have been friends with for a long time, and will continue to be.
I'm going home again this weekend. My mom is at H's house helping her pack up and keep Liam entertained. She won't be back til sometime Saturday, possibly early morning Sunday with her history of not leaving H's til early evening (6 1/2 hour drive from H's to mom's house). Dad is going down early Friday to help paint two of her rooms back to Army White (one is currently red, the other yellow), so I will be going home to dog sit Earl. Also, I have to go back to the dentist to get the cavity filled.
Well, I need to get some sleep. Tomorrow I have two classes, and in between the classes, I have to write circa 4000 words of my senior seminar paper (had to switch topics, so its from starting line-- eek!) On top of that I also need to write the abstract for the essay. I can't wait til this weekend, when I can sleep more than 6ish hours- lat night I got 4 if I'm lucky, after working on a different project til 2am and not falling asleep til after 3, getting up around 7ish. Is it Friday yet???
The next year or so is going to be a stressful one. Not only with that situation, but with the fact that in the next year, I will have graduated from school and be working to move out of my parents house, get a long-term job, etc. here's to hoping that the stress I feel while being in school dissipates substantially once I graduate. I do realize though the stress will be replaced somewhat with other stresses, such as paying student loans and other things.
Last weekend I went home, had a dentist appointment (found a cavity sadly) and stopped at Half-Price Books. This bookstore, the last time I had any contact with Mike, was where he worked. We have dissolved that friendship since then, so I was a little nervous about going in there, in case he was working. I pulled into the parking lot, and didn't see his car, so I was relieved. HOWEVER, I was in the romance fiction section in the front and hear a familiar voice coming from the back of the store (the area where you sell books to the store). I recognized it immediately as his. I mouthed "F***!" I had a little bit of a mental freak out to tell the truth. It kind of put a damper on the trip to the store, seeing as it would have been awkward if I was to go into the young adult section right next to the sell counter in the back. I have not seen him since before dissolving the friendship sadly.
Do I miss the friendship? Absolutely. But do I think that we could ever possibly get that friendship back? I'm not so sure. What I mean by this is in high school we had many similarities. As we've grown up, we've branched off from those similarities, to the point where the foundation isn't as strong anymore. I miss having the male sounding board, the shoulder to cry on, the friend I could just hang out and be myself and not feel I need to act a certain way. In the past year, a lot of friendships I've had have "parted ways" if you will. Mainly because it was a friendship out of association. Without those associations, there was cordiality, but no real friendship base. You could say instead of having a large amount of friends that most are not very solid, I have a small core group of friends that are solid and have been friends with for a long time, and will continue to be.
I'm going home again this weekend. My mom is at H's house helping her pack up and keep Liam entertained. She won't be back til sometime Saturday, possibly early morning Sunday with her history of not leaving H's til early evening (6 1/2 hour drive from H's to mom's house). Dad is going down early Friday to help paint two of her rooms back to Army White (one is currently red, the other yellow), so I will be going home to dog sit Earl. Also, I have to go back to the dentist to get the cavity filled.
Well, I need to get some sleep. Tomorrow I have two classes, and in between the classes, I have to write circa 4000 words of my senior seminar paper (had to switch topics, so its from starting line-- eek!) On top of that I also need to write the abstract for the essay. I can't wait til this weekend, when I can sleep more than 6ish hours- lat night I got 4 if I'm lucky, after working on a different project til 2am and not falling asleep til after 3, getting up around 7ish. Is it Friday yet???
Thursday, October 7, 2010
Bully not for you
I've been wrestling with this topic for the past week, since the number of teens that have committed suicide over the past 3 or so weeks has risen astronomically. The thing that gets me is they all have something in common- bullying for who they are/sexual orientation. I'm not specifically going to talk about the sexual preference part of this, but the part that I can relate to- Bullying. When I was in 7th grade, I transferred schools at my parents choice. This school was supposed to be better, with lots of students from many different cultures, with an academic challenge. The minute I walked into the school, I was judged by how I looked, my music preferences, what made me. I did make a few friends, but that did not prevent me from becoming depressed with the constant onslaught of bullying, name-calling. I can remember several instances, especially one that happened in 8th grade.
It was in between family-consumer science and english class, and I was walking back to my engnish class. I passed these two guys, one which was at the forefront of the bullying. As I passed him and his friend, he "whispered" loudly, "Quick hide the cocaine. Here comes crackhead!" Let me say, I have never done any illegal drugs. Any drugs I have taken, I have taken at doctors instruction or as needed. No addictions here! During middle school when this was going on, I went to the guidance counselor. She told me to write down all that they did, and if they kept on with the bullying, to come back to her. This did not help. I ended up not going back to her, because within a couple days, I overheard a teacher of mine talking to another teacher who I had talking about my situation as if it was no big deal. I had never confided in them what was going on, only the guidance counselor.
I honestly don't think schools know how to handle it. I don't think adults of older generations know how to handle it. They were brought up in the mindset of "Just ignore it, they'll leave you alone after a while." That does not really ever happen. It seems to produce one of three results:depression transitioning to suicide, turning into a bully themselves, or the disaster of them all... committing a violent act towards the bullies. In my case, I channeled my depression and anger into being somewhat of a bully back at the bullies. Regrettably, it is something that lasts into adulthood. I struggle with it. Some days are good, some days I'm irritated. Some days I'm depressed, and some days I just turn into a complete bitchy-catty mess. Chocolate helps.
My point of all this is there needs to be a meeting of both the administrators and those that have been bullied, and have the administrators hear what is going on, how the school "handled" it, and the result of their "handling". There also needs to be a meeting of bullies and victims of school violence, where someone has gone into their school after being bullied to their breaking point, and them taking a disastrous, violent action towards their bullies and those that are caught in the crossfire.
I want those that are being bullied to know that there is hope. There is a light at the end of the tunnel. Most if not all of those that make your life miserable won't be going on to the same high school/college/job you are. I'm not going to say it's going to be rainbows and lollipops once you get away from those situations/moving on in life. There are struggles. But it does get better. By ending your life, they are winning. Don't let them win. In no way am I saying go after them the way they go after you. I'm saying share your experience with others, document, keep speaking up. And remember it does get better.
It was in between family-consumer science and english class, and I was walking back to my engnish class. I passed these two guys, one which was at the forefront of the bullying. As I passed him and his friend, he "whispered" loudly, "Quick hide the cocaine. Here comes crackhead!" Let me say, I have never done any illegal drugs. Any drugs I have taken, I have taken at doctors instruction or as needed. No addictions here! During middle school when this was going on, I went to the guidance counselor. She told me to write down all that they did, and if they kept on with the bullying, to come back to her. This did not help. I ended up not going back to her, because within a couple days, I overheard a teacher of mine talking to another teacher who I had talking about my situation as if it was no big deal. I had never confided in them what was going on, only the guidance counselor.
I honestly don't think schools know how to handle it. I don't think adults of older generations know how to handle it. They were brought up in the mindset of "Just ignore it, they'll leave you alone after a while." That does not really ever happen. It seems to produce one of three results:depression transitioning to suicide, turning into a bully themselves, or the disaster of them all... committing a violent act towards the bullies. In my case, I channeled my depression and anger into being somewhat of a bully back at the bullies. Regrettably, it is something that lasts into adulthood. I struggle with it. Some days are good, some days I'm irritated. Some days I'm depressed, and some days I just turn into a complete bitchy-catty mess. Chocolate helps.
My point of all this is there needs to be a meeting of both the administrators and those that have been bullied, and have the administrators hear what is going on, how the school "handled" it, and the result of their "handling". There also needs to be a meeting of bullies and victims of school violence, where someone has gone into their school after being bullied to their breaking point, and them taking a disastrous, violent action towards their bullies and those that are caught in the crossfire.
I want those that are being bullied to know that there is hope. There is a light at the end of the tunnel. Most if not all of those that make your life miserable won't be going on to the same high school/college/job you are. I'm not going to say it's going to be rainbows and lollipops once you get away from those situations/moving on in life. There are struggles. But it does get better. By ending your life, they are winning. Don't let them win. In no way am I saying go after them the way they go after you. I'm saying share your experience with others, document, keep speaking up. And remember it does get better.
Monday, September 27, 2010
Faucet Nostril
So... I sit here writing this, with a toilet paper plugging up my left nostril. Why, you ask? because that side of my nose has decided it is going to run whenever I move my head. That's right, the evil cold has attacked me. I woke up to find what I thought was just allergies the past few weeks had turned into sinus drainage, glands by ears/jaw hinge sore, and a uuber stuffed up nose. To put the cherry on top, my Bio class started our fetal pig dissection today. The formaldehyde in the pig to preserve it burned the sinuses and throat, causing symptoms to get worse. Hopefully the OTC meds will be in full affect by Wednesday, when we continue. I felt so bad cutting up "Piglet."
My weekend plans may have changed, not only because of this frakking cold, but because my mom, whose birthday is on Friday, might be going out of town to visit my sister H, whose birthday is Thursday. Plus J, my other sister might be going down as well, if her meds have kicked in (gave birth 6ish months ago, unfortunately got post-partum). So besides a couple of friends, the people that would be in town to hang with would be my dad, and the dog, and possibly one of my grandparents-- I'm on her S&%$ list because I've only seen her at family functions and haven't gone to see her. As much as I would like to visit her and Magoo (her pug) I don't wanna deal with the barrage of questions, the woe-is-me stories of how none of us visit her enough, etc. Call me a bad granddaughter, but I have my limits.
If I don't go home, I have to get my community service hours underway for my ROCI class. I was going to start them last weekend, but ended up not. I could make up excuse after excuse, but it came down to nerves and laziness.
Well, I am going to continue for a little bit trying to drink tons of apple juice (1 8 oz of it contains 100% of DV of Vitamin C) and then try to get some sleep after Hawaii Five-O finishes. I can sleep in an extra hour because my 10am class was cancelled in the morning, but I'll probably get up at the usual time to get some work done before a group project meeting.
Goodnight, and here's to hoping everyone is feeling better than I do :)
My weekend plans may have changed, not only because of this frakking cold, but because my mom, whose birthday is on Friday, might be going out of town to visit my sister H, whose birthday is Thursday. Plus J, my other sister might be going down as well, if her meds have kicked in (gave birth 6ish months ago, unfortunately got post-partum). So besides a couple of friends, the people that would be in town to hang with would be my dad, and the dog, and possibly one of my grandparents-- I'm on her S&%$ list because I've only seen her at family functions and haven't gone to see her. As much as I would like to visit her and Magoo (her pug) I don't wanna deal with the barrage of questions, the woe-is-me stories of how none of us visit her enough, etc. Call me a bad granddaughter, but I have my limits.
If I don't go home, I have to get my community service hours underway for my ROCI class. I was going to start them last weekend, but ended up not. I could make up excuse after excuse, but it came down to nerves and laziness.
Well, I am going to continue for a little bit trying to drink tons of apple juice (1 8 oz of it contains 100% of DV of Vitamin C) and then try to get some sleep after Hawaii Five-O finishes. I can sleep in an extra hour because my 10am class was cancelled in the morning, but I'll probably get up at the usual time to get some work done before a group project meeting.
Goodnight, and here's to hoping everyone is feeling better than I do :)
Thursday, September 23, 2010
AHHH!!!!!
I am going through slight- ok, MAJOR computer withdrawal! You see, the power cord for my laptop decided it was going to crap out completely on me last night. This means, I can't do late-night internet, I only have tv in my dorm room, since they took the dorm computers out last year (each dorm/apartment used to have a communal computer that the whole house could use, but they took them out at the beginning of last year). I'm writing this via the school library, while I wait for group members to show up.
School is getting more chaotic/stressful. The homework is piling on. On top of that, I may have to completely change my topic/thesis statement for my senior seminar paper, which is put me smack at the beginning AGAIN. I have a midterm tomorrow. Luckily, I'm pretty sure that since it's mainly an application and term matching exam, I should be okay.
It needs to be mid to end of Fall already! I'm a redhead pale person, I melt when it is this hot and sunny outside, lol. My Mom's birthday is next Friday, so I will be going home next weekend. This weekend, I will starting my community service for my ROCI4485 (Reflections on Community Involvement) class. I will be volunteering at Sierra's Haven, an animal shelter here in the town I go to school at. It should be cool.
The dating front is still dead, so to speak. As much as I want to date again, I am scared, but I also don't want to get into anything long-distance. It's not fair to either party involved. Unless I meet a guy that goes to school here, it's his last year here, and is from my hometown, then I'll stick to the dating hiatus/moratorium.
Well, I need to get some work done before one of the group members gets here. I'll update again sometime next week. I posted on the side of the blog some of the ones I follow. Most of them have gotten pretty lack in posting. I don't blame them, we all have busy lives, what with school and family. If you know of any other good blogs, leave a comment. It's nice to hear from people.
School is getting more chaotic/stressful. The homework is piling on. On top of that, I may have to completely change my topic/thesis statement for my senior seminar paper, which is put me smack at the beginning AGAIN. I have a midterm tomorrow. Luckily, I'm pretty sure that since it's mainly an application and term matching exam, I should be okay.
It needs to be mid to end of Fall already! I'm a redhead pale person, I melt when it is this hot and sunny outside, lol. My Mom's birthday is next Friday, so I will be going home next weekend. This weekend, I will starting my community service for my ROCI4485 (Reflections on Community Involvement) class. I will be volunteering at Sierra's Haven, an animal shelter here in the town I go to school at. It should be cool.
The dating front is still dead, so to speak. As much as I want to date again, I am scared, but I also don't want to get into anything long-distance. It's not fair to either party involved. Unless I meet a guy that goes to school here, it's his last year here, and is from my hometown, then I'll stick to the dating hiatus/moratorium.
Well, I need to get some work done before one of the group members gets here. I'll update again sometime next week. I posted on the side of the blog some of the ones I follow. Most of them have gotten pretty lack in posting. I don't blame them, we all have busy lives, what with school and family. If you know of any other good blogs, leave a comment. It's nice to hear from people.
Thursday, September 16, 2010
short update
This past weekend was Maddie's blessing at their church. it wasn't really a baptism or a christening. it was kindof like a confirmation ceremony. She was adorable. the guy that was praying, she kept looking at him, like she was saying "you're a funny-looking old man." it was adorable. H and Liam were able to make it up. He was adorable as well. During the service, it seemed like it was pass the baby game, the babies kept rotating who was holding them.
I'm back at school now. It's as hectic and overwhelming as ever. I have my senior seminar paper introduction due in 90 minutes (not done yet), plus right after that, i have a group project meeting at 5, which i am not even halfway done with my part. the upside is that the rough draft is due tomorrow (not really an upside) so not EVERYTHING has to be in there yet, but i need to have the foundation if not the majority of my part done for that meeting.We got a new house mate downstairs. Haven't met her. Saw her stuff while she was moving in... a LOT of pink. Hoping no drama will ensue because of the addition.
Well, I need to get back to my senior seminar intro paper. Basically, its our topic that we've chose, the thesis statement, reasons why we chose it, definitions. He wants it to be around 2000 words (the final draft of the full paper is to be a minimum of 500 words) but he told a classmate that he'd be okay with 3 1/2 pages. I'm shooting for at least 1000 words. I'm already around 700, so if i surpass 1000, i'll be happy. The closer to 2000, the better. I fully realize though that I probably won't reach 2000, but i'll try my best.
I will try and update sometime this weekend, plus my other blog I want to add a poem I did for a class the other week. There should be a link on my profile or this page. If not, let me know, and I'll remedy that quickly. Laters :)
I'm back at school now. It's as hectic and overwhelming as ever. I have my senior seminar paper introduction due in 90 minutes (not done yet), plus right after that, i have a group project meeting at 5, which i am not even halfway done with my part. the upside is that the rough draft is due tomorrow (not really an upside) so not EVERYTHING has to be in there yet, but i need to have the foundation if not the majority of my part done for that meeting.We got a new house mate downstairs. Haven't met her. Saw her stuff while she was moving in... a LOT of pink. Hoping no drama will ensue because of the addition.
Well, I need to get back to my senior seminar intro paper. Basically, its our topic that we've chose, the thesis statement, reasons why we chose it, definitions. He wants it to be around 2000 words (the final draft of the full paper is to be a minimum of 500 words) but he told a classmate that he'd be okay with 3 1/2 pages. I'm shooting for at least 1000 words. I'm already around 700, so if i surpass 1000, i'll be happy. The closer to 2000, the better. I fully realize though that I probably won't reach 2000, but i'll try my best.
I will try and update sometime this weekend, plus my other blog I want to add a poem I did for a class the other week. There should be a link on my profile or this page. If not, let me know, and I'll remedy that quickly. Laters :)
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Possible Surprise
Well, there have been some developments in the past week since I wrote. Since I last posted, I burnt my other middle knuckle while cooking French Toast. So now both middle fingers have been burned. I don't know about you, but I find that kind of funny.
Anyways, when I moved into the dorm, there were 6 others (there was supposed to be 7 others, but one never showed up). So much to all of our surprise, one of the upstairs girls from the other room moved out! So there's now the 3 girls downstairs and 3 upstairs including myself. Not to mention that the girl left in the other upstairs room is possibly moving out after this semester to move into an apartment off campus with her boyfriend/fiancée. The school may still add girls to the house, but that usually happens if there has been an altercation in another dorm and they need to move someone.
This upcoming weekend, Labor Day Weekend, is a 3-day weekend for us here at SSU. I got a call from my sister H, who we don't usually talk, but right now are in a good place (compared to shortly before she gave birth to Liam). Apparently my mom and other sister along with her daughter Maddie are going down to visit this weekend. H asked me if I was coming with them, but unfortunately, I can't because I don't get out of class til 1pm at the latest on Friday. So, they don't know this yet- well, J knows I'm thinking about this- but I'm thinking of renting a car for the weekend and driving down there to visit. I say rent, because my car has a little over 153000 miles on it, and it's a 6 hour drive one way, so theres no way my car would make that drive very well. If I end up not renting a car and going down there, I'm going to try and start my community service for my community involvement class I'm taking this semester.
Well, I have to get ready for class. I'll hopefully update later in the week on the weekend's plans.
Anyways, when I moved into the dorm, there were 6 others (there was supposed to be 7 others, but one never showed up). So much to all of our surprise, one of the upstairs girls from the other room moved out! So there's now the 3 girls downstairs and 3 upstairs including myself. Not to mention that the girl left in the other upstairs room is possibly moving out after this semester to move into an apartment off campus with her boyfriend/fiancée. The school may still add girls to the house, but that usually happens if there has been an altercation in another dorm and they need to move someone.
This upcoming weekend, Labor Day Weekend, is a 3-day weekend for us here at SSU. I got a call from my sister H, who we don't usually talk, but right now are in a good place (compared to shortly before she gave birth to Liam). Apparently my mom and other sister along with her daughter Maddie are going down to visit this weekend. H asked me if I was coming with them, but unfortunately, I can't because I don't get out of class til 1pm at the latest on Friday. So, they don't know this yet- well, J knows I'm thinking about this- but I'm thinking of renting a car for the weekend and driving down there to visit. I say rent, because my car has a little over 153000 miles on it, and it's a 6 hour drive one way, so theres no way my car would make that drive very well. If I end up not renting a car and going down there, I'm going to try and start my community service for my community involvement class I'm taking this semester.
Well, I have to get ready for class. I'll hopefully update later in the week on the weekend's plans.
Thursday, August 26, 2010
unlucky with keys
I tend to be unlucky with my keys. What I mean by this, is I tend to either be distracted or just plain forget to grab my keys when I'm going somewhere. Be it getting out of my car, leaving the house, leaving the dorm for class. I've only had this happen twice where I've meant to take two bags (one with swimsuit in it, the other being my purse) and forgot the purse. Thank God I didn't get pulled over/my dad didn't notice my purse sitting in the house, otherwise I'd have been SCREWED! Anyways, I seemed to forget every once in a while my keys IN THE IGNITION or, like what has me sitting in the library typing this instead of lounging in my dorm room is me remembering just as the dorm room door latches as I'm running off to class that my keys are in my purse, in the room, rather being in my bookbag with me! My roommate isn't getting back til late today so after my 3:30-4:45 class, I have to call the MyRA hotline for our school to get someone to come unlock my door. Good thing we cleaned the room last night lol!
School is going well. There have been very little roommate squabbles between the floors, other than the trash stupidity this past weekend and being loud late at night when someone has to get up at 5:30AM. There really hasn't been that much gonig on the dorm front. On the job front, I turned in my app at Papa Johns yesterday. Thankfully since I have a friend that works there, it's a very safe bet that I'll be in the running, if not getting the in-restaurant job at Papa Johns. Plus I think the manager was flirting a little bit (dimples were whipped out on his end. He's not my type but I'm a sucker for dimples lol. Who isn't?) I should hear back in the next week or so if I'm getting an interview.
I haven't written any articles for our school paper. I'm planning on an article, though I don't know how widespread I want to go with it. I'm thinking asking professors what their favorite genre/type of books they like to read/ what their favorite author is, and then mapping it out. I may just stick with the English department, because there are a LOT of professors in that department alone. I may even interview the dean of the arts and humanities college of the school to get his take. Who knows, I still need to run it by the editor.
I have about 45 minutes before i need to walk over to class. I have a question for you all though. I'm looking for a new ipod since my old shuffle that survived the washer and dryer is practically no more (won't hold a charge for a day even if it's used maybe for 1-2 hours at most) and the one my sister gave me (her very old nano) was zapped of battery life when I was given it is no more, I wanted to ask you this. Where is a place/website where you can order a decently priced ipod, New (non-refurbished, because I don't necessarally trust those), more than 8gb? I've looked around a little bit, and think I may have found a 16gb nano at Walmart.com, but I don't know. I want to shoot for under $200, $150 if I'm lucky, but from whatI've seen so far, most are running atleast $175 with shipping and accessories in the storage space I'm looking for.
I'll mostlikely post again in the next few days. I've got a start on my senior seminar paper. Hopefully we find out today if the professor accepted or rejected our thesis/topics that we submitted. you see, we've been having a sub professor lately because the professor that's supposed to be teaching this class has been on sick leave recovering from heart bypass surgery, and he;ll be back Tuesday. I'm wanting to do mine on Canine Bully Breeds, specifically the Pitt Bull, and the misconceptions of the breed. Hopefully he goes for it. I've heard he's a dog person, but then I've also heard he's a cat person.
Well, I better go. The guy from my senior sem class that I have a minor crush on just walked in the library. Oh, I forgot to tell you guys about him. He's around 6 feet tall, dark brown hair, thick eyebrows, brown eyes. He's built, kindof a cross between a farmboy and jock type build. He's nice, easy to talk to, the dog that he has he rescued from a shelter (brownie points for being an animal lover).He's wanting to do his paper on how gym class in school are benifitial, or the positive side of martial arts, showing that they're not bad but can be a positive force in your life instead of violent. Sadly I'm pretty sure he has a girlfriend. A girl can dream though. Well, I'll update you guys later.
School is going well. There have been very little roommate squabbles between the floors, other than the trash stupidity this past weekend and being loud late at night when someone has to get up at 5:30AM. There really hasn't been that much gonig on the dorm front. On the job front, I turned in my app at Papa Johns yesterday. Thankfully since I have a friend that works there, it's a very safe bet that I'll be in the running, if not getting the in-restaurant job at Papa Johns. Plus I think the manager was flirting a little bit (dimples were whipped out on his end. He's not my type but I'm a sucker for dimples lol. Who isn't?) I should hear back in the next week or so if I'm getting an interview.
I haven't written any articles for our school paper. I'm planning on an article, though I don't know how widespread I want to go with it. I'm thinking asking professors what their favorite genre/type of books they like to read/ what their favorite author is, and then mapping it out. I may just stick with the English department, because there are a LOT of professors in that department alone. I may even interview the dean of the arts and humanities college of the school to get his take. Who knows, I still need to run it by the editor.
I have about 45 minutes before i need to walk over to class. I have a question for you all though. I'm looking for a new ipod since my old shuffle that survived the washer and dryer is practically no more (won't hold a charge for a day even if it's used maybe for 1-2 hours at most) and the one my sister gave me (her very old nano) was zapped of battery life when I was given it is no more, I wanted to ask you this. Where is a place/website where you can order a decently priced ipod, New (non-refurbished, because I don't necessarally trust those), more than 8gb? I've looked around a little bit, and think I may have found a 16gb nano at Walmart.com, but I don't know. I want to shoot for under $200, $150 if I'm lucky, but from whatI've seen so far, most are running atleast $175 with shipping and accessories in the storage space I'm looking for.
I'll mostlikely post again in the next few days. I've got a start on my senior seminar paper. Hopefully we find out today if the professor accepted or rejected our thesis/topics that we submitted. you see, we've been having a sub professor lately because the professor that's supposed to be teaching this class has been on sick leave recovering from heart bypass surgery, and he;ll be back Tuesday. I'm wanting to do mine on Canine Bully Breeds, specifically the Pitt Bull, and the misconceptions of the breed. Hopefully he goes for it. I've heard he's a dog person, but then I've also heard he's a cat person.
Well, I better go. The guy from my senior sem class that I have a minor crush on just walked in the library. Oh, I forgot to tell you guys about him. He's around 6 feet tall, dark brown hair, thick eyebrows, brown eyes. He's built, kindof a cross between a farmboy and jock type build. He's nice, easy to talk to, the dog that he has he rescued from a shelter (brownie points for being an animal lover).He's wanting to do his paper on how gym class in school are benifitial, or the positive side of martial arts, showing that they're not bad but can be a positive force in your life instead of violent. Sadly I'm pretty sure he has a girlfriend. A girl can dream though. Well, I'll update you guys later.
Sunday, August 22, 2010
Little update all around
Well, here's an update here and there.
The first week of school went good. I ended up going home this past weekend to fill out paperwork to get a private loan for school. So, if all goes well, I'll have school covered. On top of that, a friend of mine works at a pizza place down here. The only way you get hired there once the semester starts is if you know someone already working there. So, I have a pretty good chance at getting a job on the inside of the place (no delivery driver here- i'm not knocking those that do that, just I've heard way too many horror stories about people getting mugged). The dorm I live in, after a week without any A/C with temps outside being in the 80's, has finally gotten it fixed. I'm soooo thankful, because this redhead tends to melt when it's this hot outside! LOL.
Earl is doing MUCH better.I'm very thankful for that, because even with the parents updating the rest of us via facebook (yes, BOTH my parents have facebook accounts) I was still very worried about him possibly having Wobbler's Syndrome. Wobbler's Syndrome is something that occurs mainly in Doberman's and Great Dane's, its something about the spacing in the neck, causing the disks to pinch the spinal cord or something. I haven't looked it up, for the fact that I don't want to scare the shit outta myself. Luckily, we're pretty sure it was just a pulled neck muscle. One thing is for sure though, he's a peanut butter addict!
Well, I better get back to homework. I've got a semi early morning tomorrow, so I'm prolly going to call it a night slightly early tonight. The good thing about having to get up early most of this summer? It's helped me adjust to early classes a whole lot better.
The first week of school went good. I ended up going home this past weekend to fill out paperwork to get a private loan for school. So, if all goes well, I'll have school covered. On top of that, a friend of mine works at a pizza place down here. The only way you get hired there once the semester starts is if you know someone already working there. So, I have a pretty good chance at getting a job on the inside of the place (no delivery driver here- i'm not knocking those that do that, just I've heard way too many horror stories about people getting mugged). The dorm I live in, after a week without any A/C with temps outside being in the 80's, has finally gotten it fixed. I'm soooo thankful, because this redhead tends to melt when it's this hot outside! LOL.
Earl is doing MUCH better.I'm very thankful for that, because even with the parents updating the rest of us via facebook (yes, BOTH my parents have facebook accounts) I was still very worried about him possibly having Wobbler's Syndrome. Wobbler's Syndrome is something that occurs mainly in Doberman's and Great Dane's, its something about the spacing in the neck, causing the disks to pinch the spinal cord or something. I haven't looked it up, for the fact that I don't want to scare the shit outta myself. Luckily, we're pretty sure it was just a pulled neck muscle. One thing is for sure though, he's a peanut butter addict!
Well, I better get back to homework. I've got a semi early morning tomorrow, so I'm prolly going to call it a night slightly early tonight. The good thing about having to get up early most of this summer? It's helped me adjust to early classes a whole lot better.
Monday, August 16, 2010
slightly panicking
I'm back at school now. This past weekend was very stressful. Earl was having a medical issue, and parents were out of town for my brother in-law's deployment, so I was freaking out. Now, I'm stressed over paying for school. You see, my school has given me enough to cover half each semester (not including books). So now I have to find a private education loan to cover the rest of the amount. Otherwise I'll be making 4 payments to the school around $700 each! Ya, now you can see why I'm panicking a little bit. I don't know if any of you noticed, but I posted a list of some of the blogs I read (some dormant, some not).
I admit, I am a romance novel fan, especially those that are lean on the side of paranormal- involving "shifters", witches (but mainly just shifters. Some of my favorites are Nora Roberts, Cynthia Eden, and especially Anne Bishop and Shelly Laurenston. So I want to pose this question(s) to you. What is your favorite genre, and/or who is your favorite author?
I'll post more after this weekend. I'm going to try and find a job down here as quickly as possible, plus keep up if not get slightly ahead of my studies. I have a full courseload this semester, so I gotta hit the books hard and often, lol.
I do have to add though, the view from my dormroom windows... YUM!! Perfect view of the soccer field, which had a wonderfully delicious view of some very hot guys playing soccer. I'm going to have to get a stool so I can sit and watch them play :)
I admit, I am a romance novel fan, especially those that are lean on the side of paranormal- involving "shifters", witches (but mainly just shifters. Some of my favorites are Nora Roberts, Cynthia Eden, and especially Anne Bishop and Shelly Laurenston. So I want to pose this question(s) to you. What is your favorite genre, and/or who is your favorite author?
I'll post more after this weekend. I'm going to try and find a job down here as quickly as possible, plus keep up if not get slightly ahead of my studies. I have a full courseload this semester, so I gotta hit the books hard and often, lol.
I do have to add though, the view from my dormroom windows... YUM!! Perfect view of the soccer field, which had a wonderfully delicious view of some very hot guys playing soccer. I'm going to have to get a stool so I can sit and watch them play :)
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
My summer... and other things
I realized (due mainly to a loyal reader :) ) that i've mainly been lementing on this blog in many (most) of my last few posts. So here's a full update on things that have been happening with me and family.
With the friend situation, he never replied to my explination. Was I a little disappointed he didn't put up a bigger fight to try and salvage the friendship? yes and no. Because at the same time, I want to believe he realized what I was saying was the truth.
My summer has been pretty much nonstop work. if I'm not working at the babysitting job, I'm usually at my Gymboree job, and vice versa. There have been few days (even weekends) that I have not been worknig at one or the other.
If I haven't been working, or after I'm done working that day, sometimes I'm hanging out with family. J and I are kind of in a "love ya, but you're starting to rub a nerve," mainly due to our lack of sleep (I'm averaging on weeknights around 4 hours max.. I know, a problem). What can I say? she has a fussy baby, I have insomnia lol. Maddie is almost 5 months old already! She's so adorable. She's starting to teeth, with 3 teeth starting to poke through her gums. THe other day, she had to have her hips ultrasounded. This was because her hips since her first doctor's visit, they were worried about her hip growth. If they didn't grow the way they liked, it was going to be a cast or brace. They were starting to get worried again on this last checkup because during the exam, her hip made a popping noise! So they did an ultrasound, and everything was fine! No need for cast or brace, which is an answer to everyone's prayers, and she can continue to try and walk up people's chests while they hold her, hehe.
H and I have made up. I don't know if I blogged about it when it happened, but it was shortly before she gave birth to Liam. up until about a week ago, it was thought that she was going to be deploying this upcoming weekend and her husband the following, because her two CO's hadn't agreed on a decision. WE finally found out she's not delpoying til November, giving her a little bit more time to bond with Liam. Her husband will still deploy the weekend of the 15th.
Speaking of the weekend of the 15th, that's when I go back to school. By then, I SHOULD have my financial aid completed. You see, this year, my last year of school, they've decided to verify my information. Pretty much, an audit. So I have to go through all these hoops before I can get aid. Even with aid, I know I'm going to have to get a job down there to help pay for school, I'm already certain of it. As much as I don't want to, it looks like I will be joining the fast food workers nation in a few weeks. Not to insult them, it's just I've been in retail this whole time, and tried to avoid it because I've heard it can be very chaotic and confusing. P-town doesn't exactly have that many retail stores, and most of them should have their available positions filled by the time we college students return for the fall.
The whole dating thing has stalled. I want to stick to what I said (nto dating til after college), but I also want to be out there, you know? Get the dating jitters out of the way, move past the shameless flirting. The attraction to Andrew and Kev have kindof fizzled as well. I'm attributing that to not seeing them though. It's just as well I guess.
I have goals for school this year. Graduate being the endgame lol. I want to have fun, not be stressed out. I want to stick to my goals, my schedule, etc.
Well, I should get ready for bed. I may not be babysitting til Thursday again this week, but I am at Gymboree tomorrow. I'll probably not blog again til I get down to school, so untill then...
Oh, one last thing.. Anyone know of any good blogs fiction/nonfiction to read? The majority of the ones I read have had problems pop up, causing them to put their blogs on hold, some indefinitely, which sucks, but is understandable.
With the friend situation, he never replied to my explination. Was I a little disappointed he didn't put up a bigger fight to try and salvage the friendship? yes and no. Because at the same time, I want to believe he realized what I was saying was the truth.
My summer has been pretty much nonstop work. if I'm not working at the babysitting job, I'm usually at my Gymboree job, and vice versa. There have been few days (even weekends) that I have not been worknig at one or the other.
If I haven't been working, or after I'm done working that day, sometimes I'm hanging out with family. J and I are kind of in a "love ya, but you're starting to rub a nerve," mainly due to our lack of sleep (I'm averaging on weeknights around 4 hours max.. I know, a problem). What can I say? she has a fussy baby, I have insomnia lol. Maddie is almost 5 months old already! She's so adorable. She's starting to teeth, with 3 teeth starting to poke through her gums. THe other day, she had to have her hips ultrasounded. This was because her hips since her first doctor's visit, they were worried about her hip growth. If they didn't grow the way they liked, it was going to be a cast or brace. They were starting to get worried again on this last checkup because during the exam, her hip made a popping noise! So they did an ultrasound, and everything was fine! No need for cast or brace, which is an answer to everyone's prayers, and she can continue to try and walk up people's chests while they hold her, hehe.
H and I have made up. I don't know if I blogged about it when it happened, but it was shortly before she gave birth to Liam. up until about a week ago, it was thought that she was going to be deploying this upcoming weekend and her husband the following, because her two CO's hadn't agreed on a decision. WE finally found out she's not delpoying til November, giving her a little bit more time to bond with Liam. Her husband will still deploy the weekend of the 15th.
Speaking of the weekend of the 15th, that's when I go back to school. By then, I SHOULD have my financial aid completed. You see, this year, my last year of school, they've decided to verify my information. Pretty much, an audit. So I have to go through all these hoops before I can get aid. Even with aid, I know I'm going to have to get a job down there to help pay for school, I'm already certain of it. As much as I don't want to, it looks like I will be joining the fast food workers nation in a few weeks. Not to insult them, it's just I've been in retail this whole time, and tried to avoid it because I've heard it can be very chaotic and confusing. P-town doesn't exactly have that many retail stores, and most of them should have their available positions filled by the time we college students return for the fall.
The whole dating thing has stalled. I want to stick to what I said (nto dating til after college), but I also want to be out there, you know? Get the dating jitters out of the way, move past the shameless flirting. The attraction to Andrew and Kev have kindof fizzled as well. I'm attributing that to not seeing them though. It's just as well I guess.
I have goals for school this year. Graduate being the endgame lol. I want to have fun, not be stressed out. I want to stick to my goals, my schedule, etc.
Well, I should get ready for bed. I may not be babysitting til Thursday again this week, but I am at Gymboree tomorrow. I'll probably not blog again til I get down to school, so untill then...
Oh, one last thing.. Anyone know of any good blogs fiction/nonfiction to read? The majority of the ones I read have had problems pop up, causing them to put their blogs on hold, some indefinitely, which sucks, but is understandable.
Monday, July 26, 2010
losing friends
So, this blog.. not the happiest as ones that have focused on my neice and nephew (they are so ADORABLE!)
You see, I'm in the process of disolving a friendship. I say "in the process" because ths guy thinks the issues stems from only this past weekend's "brush off". When it really is from not only a summer of brush offs, but realizing the friendship has faded over the past couple years. (Blame the english major in me for the metaphor) It's like we used to be in the same book but different chapters. Now.. it's like we're in different books from the same author. We have similarities/shared interests, but not enough to keep the friendship intact. It sucks, because I considered him my best guy friend. It's not like I wanna lose a best friend, I find myself internally going back and forth questioning this, but I'm sick of the letdowns. I mean, only once I said "goodbye" to the friendship in a message to him, did he actually put plans out there for us to hang out. The last time we talked was when we ran into each other after I had a job interview, and then it seemed awkward, almost forced somehow.
Work is going well, at both jobs. Both ive momentary troubles, but that happens with any job. School starts up in a couple weeks for me. Should be an interesting last year in college. Then on to bigger and better things.
Sorry for such a brief post. Once all this mess is over with (whether the friendship is dissolved or somehow is kept going) I'll let you guys know. My question for everybody is, have any of you been in a similar situation?
You see, I'm in the process of disolving a friendship. I say "in the process" because ths guy thinks the issues stems from only this past weekend's "brush off". When it really is from not only a summer of brush offs, but realizing the friendship has faded over the past couple years. (Blame the english major in me for the metaphor) It's like we used to be in the same book but different chapters. Now.. it's like we're in different books from the same author. We have similarities/shared interests, but not enough to keep the friendship intact. It sucks, because I considered him my best guy friend. It's not like I wanna lose a best friend, I find myself internally going back and forth questioning this, but I'm sick of the letdowns. I mean, only once I said "goodbye" to the friendship in a message to him, did he actually put plans out there for us to hang out. The last time we talked was when we ran into each other after I had a job interview, and then it seemed awkward, almost forced somehow.
Work is going well, at both jobs. Both ive momentary troubles, but that happens with any job. School starts up in a couple weeks for me. Should be an interesting last year in college. Then on to bigger and better things.
Sorry for such a brief post. Once all this mess is over with (whether the friendship is dissolved or somehow is kept going) I'll let you guys know. My question for everybody is, have any of you been in a similar situation?
Thursday, July 8, 2010
Another week, lack of sleep
I am a tired lady right now. Who knew that sleeping in a lot or even just a little when you have the weekend off makes the rest of the week an insomniac mess? besides last night, i got AT MOST 4 hours of sleep a night. I'm so looking forward to tomorrow night after I get done babysitting. I don't have to work at the store until at least Sunday (I'll find out later today after my 12-3 that might have me stay til 5 shift). So I will get to sleep slightly earlier, plus be able to sleep slightly longer at least Saturday night. Probably not Friday night because J and Ph are coming over to clear out a room that will be Liam's coming this August when both his parents deploy.
I ended up going to K's 4th of July bonfire sunday, which was long. I mean, it had it's moments, like Andrew, the cute friend of K's that she plays magic the gathering with (yes, she's a dork. No, i don't play, so I'm not as big of a dork, lol) Anyways, there was some flirting going on between the two of us.. that was thwarted by his/their friend Goose. This guy's take on friendship is that you're friends with him if he insults/makes fun of you. He's extremely abrasive, and will not let himself be wrong. For example, K, Amanda (mutual friend) and I had come in from petting her neighbor's rottweiler-mastiff mix puppy (7 weeks old, SOOO ADORABLE). Goose made the flippant comment "well, that's a stable dog." I made the comment back that it depends more on the handling of the dog, not the breed itself. He pretty much told me I was wrong, and then sited that German Shepard dogs were psychotic. I went off on him, again siting the handlnig was important, and started to site exampes since I knew of several dogs from that breed, plus a pittbull that were not "psychotic" and went agains breed stereotypes. However, L (K's boyfriend) cut me off. K was defending me and also going off on Goose for a statement he made to her stepdad earlier in the night. L's way of defusing the situation was to "suggest" that I didn't need to be in the room, that I could leave the room. This is also the same guy that after he ran into my ex at a Gamestop, invited him to K's grad party even though my ex had claimed he hated K. Yes, their friends, but still, kinda rude. The reason he didn't suggest Goose leave was because they were about to start a game that's similar to Risk/magic.
I was ready to deck Goose. Andrew slightly took everybody's minds off the argument with a "size of his anatomy" joke. I went outside by the waning fire to calm down. I had intended to spend the night even though I wasn't drinking, but decided to call it a night and leave, because I knew if I stayed til the game was over (it was a little after 3 when I left and they were just getting ready to start!) I would end up decking Goose.
Babysitting this week has been okay. The oldest kid is starting to have more attitude than the 5 year old, but is quickly defused.
I know I should touch on the Kevin subject. I kinda put a feeler out there, suggesting that he come hang out at K's bonfire (she had already invited him). He declined, because he was having his own party. No inviting me to his, or whatever. I'm going to back off the attempting to see where things go for a while, mainly because I'm only in town for another month and I'm not doing anything long-distance again. Maybe when I'm in town for long periods of time I might see where things are, but right now dating's on the back burner.
Well, I have to go get ready for my shift at Gymboree. I'll try and write more often, promise :)
I ended up going to K's 4th of July bonfire sunday, which was long. I mean, it had it's moments, like Andrew, the cute friend of K's that she plays magic the gathering with (yes, she's a dork. No, i don't play, so I'm not as big of a dork, lol) Anyways, there was some flirting going on between the two of us.. that was thwarted by his/their friend Goose. This guy's take on friendship is that you're friends with him if he insults/makes fun of you. He's extremely abrasive, and will not let himself be wrong. For example, K, Amanda (mutual friend) and I had come in from petting her neighbor's rottweiler-mastiff mix puppy (7 weeks old, SOOO ADORABLE). Goose made the flippant comment "well, that's a stable dog." I made the comment back that it depends more on the handling of the dog, not the breed itself. He pretty much told me I was wrong, and then sited that German Shepard dogs were psychotic. I went off on him, again siting the handlnig was important, and started to site exampes since I knew of several dogs from that breed, plus a pittbull that were not "psychotic" and went agains breed stereotypes. However, L (K's boyfriend) cut me off. K was defending me and also going off on Goose for a statement he made to her stepdad earlier in the night. L's way of defusing the situation was to "suggest" that I didn't need to be in the room, that I could leave the room. This is also the same guy that after he ran into my ex at a Gamestop, invited him to K's grad party even though my ex had claimed he hated K. Yes, their friends, but still, kinda rude. The reason he didn't suggest Goose leave was because they were about to start a game that's similar to Risk/magic.
I was ready to deck Goose. Andrew slightly took everybody's minds off the argument with a "size of his anatomy" joke. I went outside by the waning fire to calm down. I had intended to spend the night even though I wasn't drinking, but decided to call it a night and leave, because I knew if I stayed til the game was over (it was a little after 3 when I left and they were just getting ready to start!) I would end up decking Goose.
Babysitting this week has been okay. The oldest kid is starting to have more attitude than the 5 year old, but is quickly defused.
I know I should touch on the Kevin subject. I kinda put a feeler out there, suggesting that he come hang out at K's bonfire (she had already invited him). He declined, because he was having his own party. No inviting me to his, or whatever. I'm going to back off the attempting to see where things go for a while, mainly because I'm only in town for another month and I'm not doing anything long-distance again. Maybe when I'm in town for long periods of time I might see where things are, but right now dating's on the back burner.
Well, I have to go get ready for my shift at Gymboree. I'll try and write more often, promise :)
Friday, July 2, 2010
matchmaking relatives, UGH!
So...J and her husband have gotten it in their head that I should get togetther with H's brother in-law Kevin. He's a year younger than me. I've known him most of my life- when we were younger, we were on a local summer swim team together. Ya, we get along easily. J doesn't know that towards the end of high school, I was contmplating getting together with him, but that didn't pan out. Now, They've planted the damn seed in my head again! Especially with when I was holding H's son Liam yesterday and Kev came over and barely touched both my arms while paying attention to Liam...
If it was a year from now, I would've possibly cosidered it. But not now. I have a year left in school, so I'll not be in twon for most of the months from August-May. I'm not going through the long-distance stuff again.
Work at both the kids retail store and the babysitting gig is going well. I lack sleep most days, especially with my slight case of insomnia, so caffiene is my friend, lol.
Let me pose the question to you guys. Should I attempt to see if Kev is interested, or just let it go for now?
If it was a year from now, I would've possibly cosidered it. But not now. I have a year left in school, so I'll not be in twon for most of the months from August-May. I'm not going through the long-distance stuff again.
Work at both the kids retail store and the babysitting gig is going well. I lack sleep most days, especially with my slight case of insomnia, so caffiene is my friend, lol.
Let me pose the question to you guys. Should I attempt to see if Kev is interested, or just let it go for now?
Friday, June 18, 2010
Almost Gone
Well, work is going good. The kids clothing store jb is sometimes confusing, but I'm getting the hang of it. This week was interesting there and at the babysitting job. You see, my allergies flared up, which morphed into a bad cold. I lost my voice practically completely. Ya. I think I got it for one or both of the twins. This week at the babysitting job, I only had 3 of the four kids (oldest was at camp, will be back next week). I expected to have lots of tantrums from the 5 year old, but he's been really good this week, minimal tantrums, which were all qwelled quickly. Earl is still being his crazy self. He was not fun to deal with a few nights ago when it was storming and I wasn't feeling well. Needless to say, he goes in his cage at night if there's the possibilty of storms in the area and everyones asleep/you're the only one home.
This is a short update, but I'll edit later and add to it. The munchkins are getting into stuff, plus one is looking especially sleepy. One last thing though. Sometime in the next cuple weeks, my sister H and her family are coming up while they're on block leave. So I'll get to meet her newborn son. My neice from my other sister turned 3 months yesterday, and H's baby boy turned 2 weeks old :)
I'll have more later.
This is a short update, but I'll edit later and add to it. The munchkins are getting into stuff, plus one is looking especially sleepy. One last thing though. Sometime in the next cuple weeks, my sister H and her family are coming up while they're on block leave. So I'll get to meet her newborn son. My neice from my other sister turned 3 months yesterday, and H's baby boy turned 2 weeks old :)
I'll have more later.
Monday, June 7, 2010
Look ma, one of each! :)
H finally had Liam at 12:16 AM June 3. She was induced at 1pm on June 1st, so you can imagine how much "fun" she was having for 36ish hours. He's adorable, already holding up to his middle name (as much as he can in his newborn state lol).
The night I found out or the night after I found out about my job at the childrens retail store, my mom referred me to her coworker that needed a babysitter. So, now I have two jobs. I babysit M-Th, that is when I'm not working at the store. There's four kids. The two youngest are 13 month old twins (boy and girl), a 4/5 year old boy, and a 9 year old girl. The twins are fun, they keep me busy. The 5 year old likes to test, which his mom said he would. He's coming around slowly. We'll see how it goes. The 9 year old is my little helper. You see, the twins, they both like to NOT stay still when getting their diapers changed, which makes things especially difficult. She helps entertain them while I change them if they aren't happy with the toy that's in teir hands.
I started at the store today. It didn't go that bad. The first 3 hours I wa in the stock room doing paper work and reading the employee handbook. The last hour, I was out on the floor, training at cashwrap. We had one incident during training. These three guys came into the store. I immediately thought something was off. Both me and the manager kept talking to them frequently. Turns out they were pulling an LP (Loss Prevention), aka, they were shoplifting. Since I didn't know the code, she had to go in the back and call security without them getting suspicious. One of the three had left before the guard could get there. I don't know if they caught them or not. Hopefully they did.
Well, I should probably get off here soon. I have to be out the door by 7:30 at the latest to be at my babysitting job by 8:30. You gotta love early morning traffic :) I'm sooo stopping at BP for coffe on my way there.
Night all :)
The night I found out or the night after I found out about my job at the childrens retail store, my mom referred me to her coworker that needed a babysitter. So, now I have two jobs. I babysit M-Th, that is when I'm not working at the store. There's four kids. The two youngest are 13 month old twins (boy and girl), a 4/5 year old boy, and a 9 year old girl. The twins are fun, they keep me busy. The 5 year old likes to test, which his mom said he would. He's coming around slowly. We'll see how it goes. The 9 year old is my little helper. You see, the twins, they both like to NOT stay still when getting their diapers changed, which makes things especially difficult. She helps entertain them while I change them if they aren't happy with the toy that's in teir hands.
I started at the store today. It didn't go that bad. The first 3 hours I wa in the stock room doing paper work and reading the employee handbook. The last hour, I was out on the floor, training at cashwrap. We had one incident during training. These three guys came into the store. I immediately thought something was off. Both me and the manager kept talking to them frequently. Turns out they were pulling an LP (Loss Prevention), aka, they were shoplifting. Since I didn't know the code, she had to go in the back and call security without them getting suspicious. One of the three had left before the guard could get there. I don't know if they caught them or not. Hopefully they did.
Well, I should probably get off here soon. I have to be out the door by 7:30 at the latest to be at my babysitting job by 8:30. You gotta love early morning traffic :) I'm sooo stopping at BP for coffe on my way there.
Night all :)
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
I GOT A JOB!!!
I GOT A JOB!!!
Today started out a crappy day. I woke up with a headache, AGAIN. Earl was nice omic relief as always. He's decided the couch is his bed, along with my bed being his bed, lol. I don't do well when it's hot outside. I prefer Fall, not summer weather. I like a calm slightly sunny day, no humidity, slight wind, when summer comes around. I like thunderstorms, lol. I'm probably a typical redhead.
Anyways, the places I applied at today, most not so promising. There's a part-time job at a clothing store that might be. When I got home, I called a couple of the places that I've applied at in the past few weeks. One couldn't give me a clear answer for a few days. One told me they were loking for someone longterm, not someone to work for a couple of weeks, aka summer job. And here's the thing. Yes, I am looking for a summer job, but also possibly one that I could work weekends at when I go back to school, or can transfer to a location closer to school when the semester starts up in mid-August. So, naturally, I was pretty bummed, with every place giving me either the runaround, or just saying no. So when I got a call from Gymboree, a children's clothing store, I had no expectations. And... I GOT THE JOB!!!
The manager that interviewed me last week said its an average of 8-15 hours a week. she said it would be a couple hours during the week, but more hours available on the weekend. Plus, it works well with having a 2nd job. I think I'm getting paid $7.50 an hour, which I'm happy with (I was only hoping for 7.30, the states's minimum wage). I'll find out what day I start working (the week of June 6) by 5pm next Wednesday because of the holiday is making the store crazy busy this week. I'm still looking for a 2nd job, so I'll be hitting the trail again tomorrow.
Onto baby news...
J took Maddie in for a checkup earlier this week. Her hips are still clicking, but they do NOT need to be put into a cast at this point since she's grown. In terms to H and the unborn Liam, her due date was yesterday. No baby yet, according to both the dad and the baby's facebook pages (since H unfriended me awhile back, I can't see what she's putting on her page, so who knows. The funny thing about this, is that When H was born, she was born a month early. I have a feeling that within the next week, by next Tuesday, she's going to be induced, and baby Liam will be here. When Mom and Dad go down to see them, I'll still stay up here. One, because someone has to stay and take care of Earl. Two, because H and I just recently threw up the peace flags, so I'm giving her some space. She gets 45 day maternity leave, so her, Pa and the baby will probably come u to meet everybody, since most can't come down to their base. If they don't come up, then I'll see him when he comes up here in August when they get deployed.
Well, I gotta get some rest. Going to get up and hit the trail in the morning. Hopefully, I'll have news soon on the Liam front, along with the possible 2nd job front.
--On a side note.. I was taking care of my neice last week, because J had to get taken to the ER (They were putting new carpet into her apartment building in the halls, no warning beforehand though she told them about her allergy to the glue used in carpeting). I can now say, I have a new appreciation for all those single parents out there, especially my Aunt. Granted her kids are now in their 20's and are settling down, plus were in late childhood when she got a divorce, but still. It is NOT EASY. The one comforting note was that Maddie apparently likes my chest, lol! yes, i have one, and if it keeps her from crying, and helps her fall asleep, then I thank genetics, lol. I also watched RHONJ the other night, the episode where Theresa has her baby. It put me straddling the baby/no baby debate (much later i life, once i graduate, and hopefully am married). They showed her getting an epidural. Now to recap what that is, its when you get a needle in your spine, creating an iv line, that deliver pain meds to you, canceling out the pain from contractions. Now, I don't like needles. I hate getting shots. Now, this is kinda hypocritical/ironic since I dealt with getting a tattoo and plan on getting another one in the future. They show how big the needle is.. Ya, not doing that! THey will have to asemble it out of my view, out of hearing, and keep me distracted while they put it in. Possibly have someone punch me out or something, lol just kidding. But ya, That needle is intimidating!
Well, now it is good night. I'll see you on the flipside :)
Today started out a crappy day. I woke up with a headache, AGAIN. Earl was nice omic relief as always. He's decided the couch is his bed, along with my bed being his bed, lol. I don't do well when it's hot outside. I prefer Fall, not summer weather. I like a calm slightly sunny day, no humidity, slight wind, when summer comes around. I like thunderstorms, lol. I'm probably a typical redhead.
Anyways, the places I applied at today, most not so promising. There's a part-time job at a clothing store that might be. When I got home, I called a couple of the places that I've applied at in the past few weeks. One couldn't give me a clear answer for a few days. One told me they were loking for someone longterm, not someone to work for a couple of weeks, aka summer job. And here's the thing. Yes, I am looking for a summer job, but also possibly one that I could work weekends at when I go back to school, or can transfer to a location closer to school when the semester starts up in mid-August. So, naturally, I was pretty bummed, with every place giving me either the runaround, or just saying no. So when I got a call from Gymboree, a children's clothing store, I had no expectations. And... I GOT THE JOB!!!
The manager that interviewed me last week said its an average of 8-15 hours a week. she said it would be a couple hours during the week, but more hours available on the weekend. Plus, it works well with having a 2nd job. I think I'm getting paid $7.50 an hour, which I'm happy with (I was only hoping for 7.30, the states's minimum wage). I'll find out what day I start working (the week of June 6) by 5pm next Wednesday because of the holiday is making the store crazy busy this week. I'm still looking for a 2nd job, so I'll be hitting the trail again tomorrow.
Onto baby news...
J took Maddie in for a checkup earlier this week. Her hips are still clicking, but they do NOT need to be put into a cast at this point since she's grown. In terms to H and the unborn Liam, her due date was yesterday. No baby yet, according to both the dad and the baby's facebook pages (since H unfriended me awhile back, I can't see what she's putting on her page, so who knows. The funny thing about this, is that When H was born, she was born a month early. I have a feeling that within the next week, by next Tuesday, she's going to be induced, and baby Liam will be here. When Mom and Dad go down to see them, I'll still stay up here. One, because someone has to stay and take care of Earl. Two, because H and I just recently threw up the peace flags, so I'm giving her some space. She gets 45 day maternity leave, so her, Pa and the baby will probably come u to meet everybody, since most can't come down to their base. If they don't come up, then I'll see him when he comes up here in August when they get deployed.
Well, I gotta get some rest. Going to get up and hit the trail in the morning. Hopefully, I'll have news soon on the Liam front, along with the possible 2nd job front.
--On a side note.. I was taking care of my neice last week, because J had to get taken to the ER (They were putting new carpet into her apartment building in the halls, no warning beforehand though she told them about her allergy to the glue used in carpeting). I can now say, I have a new appreciation for all those single parents out there, especially my Aunt. Granted her kids are now in their 20's and are settling down, plus were in late childhood when she got a divorce, but still. It is NOT EASY. The one comforting note was that Maddie apparently likes my chest, lol! yes, i have one, and if it keeps her from crying, and helps her fall asleep, then I thank genetics, lol. I also watched RHONJ the other night, the episode where Theresa has her baby. It put me straddling the baby/no baby debate (much later i life, once i graduate, and hopefully am married). They showed her getting an epidural. Now to recap what that is, its when you get a needle in your spine, creating an iv line, that deliver pain meds to you, canceling out the pain from contractions. Now, I don't like needles. I hate getting shots. Now, this is kinda hypocritical/ironic since I dealt with getting a tattoo and plan on getting another one in the future. They show how big the needle is.. Ya, not doing that! THey will have to asemble it out of my view, out of hearing, and keep me distracted while they put it in. Possibly have someone punch me out or something, lol just kidding. But ya, That needle is intimidating!
Well, now it is good night. I'll see you on the flipside :)
Thursday, May 20, 2010
Late night Ramblings
The reason I'm writing this so late is because I'm babysitting, literally. I'm watching my neice Maddie, waiting for her mom (my sister J) to return from the ER with my mom. You see, in J's apartment building, they've started putting down new carpet in the hallways. J's always gotten migraines before in this type of situation. However this time, she started having breathing problems. So she called her husband Ph who was at work to come take her to the ER, and Dad to send me over to watch Maddie. Maddie's been off and on good since they left. She fights sleep, so when she's tired, she screams. She's finally tired herself out on her parent's bed, but the last time she fell asleep tonight and I moved her to her bassinet, she woke up and started crying again. So I'm just waiting for the call saying they're on the way home, and then here (J forgot her keys, so I have to stay up not only to watch the babykins, but to let them in.)
So, countdown til Baby Liam (H's son) is born has begun. I realized during my job interview at Gymboree today that May 25th is only now 5 days away, so she could pop anytime! Then, Maddie's going to have competition for cutest baby alive, lol.
The job hunting is going good. I've had afew interviews. I'll have to cover them next week (hopefully by then I'll have more answers) because the munchkin is starting to rub her face in her sleep, whch has been waking her up tonight. Laters :)
So, countdown til Baby Liam (H's son) is born has begun. I realized during my job interview at Gymboree today that May 25th is only now 5 days away, so she could pop anytime! Then, Maddie's going to have competition for cutest baby alive, lol.
The job hunting is going good. I've had afew interviews. I'll have to cover them next week (hopefully by then I'll have more answers) because the munchkin is starting to rub her face in her sleep, whch has been waking her up tonight. Laters :)
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
Hi! My name is Earl :)
So, yesterday, my momand I are getting ready to go out, (her to work, me job interview) dad calls us. He says Earl has been medically cleared, and we can bring him home that day! So I stopped by Petsmart on the way home to pick up a couple of toys and treats.
He's so cute! He's a yellow lab, around 3 years old. We think he may have a bit of great dane in him, but he's adorable (you think Ugly Dachsund (sp?), lots of energy, lethal tail. He's on the skinny side right now. From what the shelter told dad, when he was brought in around Apr25, he was 62 lbs, and as of when we got him on Monday, he's up to 84 lbs. You can count his ribs now, so it's scary to think about what he may have looked like/the condition he was in when he first came to the shelter. WE spent over 2 hours outside monday night, while dad put his cage together (he got the largest they had at the store- as i call it, its like the queen sized bed for dogs, lol), then went over to J's to spend the night (she had a scare in the car with Maddie.she's okay. she just spit up a little, and more wanted to come up, but since in a car seat babies are leaning back, it made it a bad situation. she's okay, promise.) Spent the day with her, Ph and Maddie, who was pretty much all smiles with me when she was awake. Could it have been all the faces at hr? yes, probably, lol.
Being around Maddie, it makes me think about (waaaay later on down the road) having kids. I would wait atleast 5 more years though, when I'm out of college, and (hopefully) married. The thing that scares me is when kids hit prepubescent/teenage years. I remember my teens (seeing as they were not that long ago, lol) and I was a hormonal mess, lol. I don't know if I would be able to do what my mom did. She is such a strong woman to have had 3 kids within a 5 year timespan (J, the oldest is 5 years older than me and H is 3 years older than me). I love kids, especially babies. My sister J and my mom are always telling "it's different when it's your kid" and maybe that's true, but I'm still wary, which truthfully I think is smart on my part.
Well, I should go. Mom's getting home soon from work, and Earl's going to probably need to go out one last time before being crated for the night. Below is a picture. THis is my first attempt at posting pictures, so please feel free to leave comments, and if it doesn't show up, please let me know.
Laters :)
He's so cute! He's a yellow lab, around 3 years old. We think he may have a bit of great dane in him, but he's adorable (you think Ugly Dachsund (sp?), lots of energy, lethal tail. He's on the skinny side right now. From what the shelter told dad, when he was brought in around Apr25, he was 62 lbs, and as of when we got him on Monday, he's up to 84 lbs. You can count his ribs now, so it's scary to think about what he may have looked like/the condition he was in when he first came to the shelter. WE spent over 2 hours outside monday night, while dad put his cage together (he got the largest they had at the store- as i call it, its like the queen sized bed for dogs, lol), then went over to J's to spend the night (she had a scare in the car with Maddie.she's okay. she just spit up a little, and more wanted to come up, but since in a car seat babies are leaning back, it made it a bad situation. she's okay, promise.) Spent the day with her, Ph and Maddie, who was pretty much all smiles with me when she was awake. Could it have been all the faces at hr? yes, probably, lol.
Being around Maddie, it makes me think about (waaaay later on down the road) having kids. I would wait atleast 5 more years though, when I'm out of college, and (hopefully) married. The thing that scares me is when kids hit prepubescent/teenage years. I remember my teens (seeing as they were not that long ago, lol) and I was a hormonal mess, lol. I don't know if I would be able to do what my mom did. She is such a strong woman to have had 3 kids within a 5 year timespan (J, the oldest is 5 years older than me and H is 3 years older than me). I love kids, especially babies. My sister J and my mom are always telling "it's different when it's your kid" and maybe that's true, but I'm still wary, which truthfully I think is smart on my part.
Well, I should go. Mom's getting home soon from work, and Earl's going to probably need to go out one last time before being crated for the night. Below is a picture. THis is my first attempt at posting pictures, so please feel free to leave comments, and if it doesn't show up, please let me know.
Laters :)
Sunday, May 9, 2010
A little awkwardness never hurt anyone, right?
So, I've been jobhunting lot this past week or so. I've already had an interview with one place, and have two other job interviews st up for the next week. Hopefully I get one of them. Friday night, I spent over at J's with her, nana and Maddie, becauseJ wasn't feeling well. It was fun just lounging around, watching kim possible movies with them. The thunderstorm- or should I say wimpy storm- that went through was rather disappointing. Yesterday...ya, for the most part was great. Woke up to J holding Maddie on my arm, then was greeted with Maddie smiling at me (yes, I know that baby has me wrapped). Left there for a short bit, brought my friend B over to see Maddie for the first time. After hanging out there, B and I went out for food, then I dropped her off at her place because she had to go to her grandma's house that evening.
I went out to K's grad party. It was fun... I hung out with practiucally everybody there.. except my ex that showed up. Apparently K's boyfriend and another friend of ours ran into him at his work, and invited him. Thankfully, they warned me. I was fine, nervouse, but fine. You see, this was the first time seeing him in over a year, since the breakup and dropping off the trash- sorry, "gifts"- he had given me while were dating (I didn't want the constant reminder of him everywhere I went. I think everyone is nervous the first time they see their ex out in a public after breaking up. Thankfully he didn't bring C, his girlfriend (he had dated her before the last time we dated, and is not dating her again, also living with her and her family) because that would've pushed it. I played nice to a degree- meaning, I stayed away from him,so not to be tempted to be violent. Which I wasn't really tempted to do that.. til the end of the night.
You see, Patty (K's mom) was saying what all the sleeping arrangements were, and was listing them off to him in the kitchen (I was in the living room, and those of us in there were kinda listening). He almost stayed! That would've been my limit. When there was that possibility for aminute or so, in my head and in the texts I sent to my friend El, "I don't care that I've had a little to drink, I'm not sleeping in the same room to him!" I was all for driving home if he ended up stayin the night, because we would've mostlikely ended up sleeping in the same room, and that would be past my tolerance limit. Luckily, he walked back to C's place, not spending the night. And yes, I do have a small amount of residual anger, but not nearly as much as I used to. Was I nervous to be around him, yes, because I didn't know what was going to go down. But did I have feelings for him, as in did I want him back? NO, absolutely not. I fully realized that last night, I was almsot completely sure, but solidified that belief when I saw him, and had no urge to break his neck/balls whatsoever.
After he left, a friend of K's came over, one of her magic card-playing friends. Let me tell you, he was cute. He had a slight swimmers build, cute butt, nice on the eyes, funny. I don't know if I would ever date him, but he was atleast nice to look at. There seemed to be easy banter between me and him the few times we spoke/sparred when we were all getting ready to call it a night. James (the mutual friend of K and I that was with her bf & ran into my ex) slept on the chair in K's room, everybody else left at the party (minus her mom, stepdad and baby cousin) were downstairs. There was some jokes about who Andrew (the cute guy) would wake up spooning with, because he didn't have a blanket for a lil bit until K brought a ouple down. She ended up going back down and taking one back for me so we wouldn't have to battle over her blanket. K and I ended up "sharing" her bed. Her boyfriend didn't stay (his mom's rule). I say the "sharing" part lightly, because it was a twin bed, and I had enough to barely cover laying on my side. I woldn't have been the least surprised to have woken up on the floor.
We all woke up early this morning. Most of them were going to sunday school then church service, one was going to work. Me? I woke up, got my shoes and purse, and went home to get some actual sleep (kept waking up to find K sprawled over more of the bed.) My dad thought I was hungover. Truely, I wasn't. I'm not a morning person to begin with, and I don't like sunlight, hense why I'm a pale ginger. But combine the two with slep deprivation? You have what can pass as a hangover I guess.
When I finally came downstairs a couple hours after waking back up, Dad was nowhere to be found. His bedroom light was on, but his car wasn't in the driveway. I think he may be visiting Earl (the dog we're getting as early as tomorrow if he's medically cleared by then) but who knows, he may be at a "nerd Herd" model meeting (modeling kits, like toy airplanes, cars, etc.)
Well, I'lll post again next week, giving progress on the job search, and Earl, and the other parts of my life. Catch you on the flipside :)
I went out to K's grad party. It was fun... I hung out with practiucally everybody there.. except my ex that showed up. Apparently K's boyfriend and another friend of ours ran into him at his work, and invited him. Thankfully, they warned me. I was fine, nervouse, but fine. You see, this was the first time seeing him in over a year, since the breakup and dropping off the trash- sorry, "gifts"- he had given me while were dating (I didn't want the constant reminder of him everywhere I went. I think everyone is nervous the first time they see their ex out in a public after breaking up. Thankfully he didn't bring C, his girlfriend (he had dated her before the last time we dated, and is not dating her again, also living with her and her family) because that would've pushed it. I played nice to a degree- meaning, I stayed away from him,so not to be tempted to be violent. Which I wasn't really tempted to do that.. til the end of the night.
You see, Patty (K's mom) was saying what all the sleeping arrangements were, and was listing them off to him in the kitchen (I was in the living room, and those of us in there were kinda listening). He almost stayed! That would've been my limit. When there was that possibility for aminute or so, in my head and in the texts I sent to my friend El, "I don't care that I've had a little to drink, I'm not sleeping in the same room to him!" I was all for driving home if he ended up stayin the night, because we would've mostlikely ended up sleeping in the same room, and that would be past my tolerance limit. Luckily, he walked back to C's place, not spending the night. And yes, I do have a small amount of residual anger, but not nearly as much as I used to. Was I nervous to be around him, yes, because I didn't know what was going to go down. But did I have feelings for him, as in did I want him back? NO, absolutely not. I fully realized that last night, I was almsot completely sure, but solidified that belief when I saw him, and had no urge to break his neck/balls whatsoever.
After he left, a friend of K's came over, one of her magic card-playing friends. Let me tell you, he was cute. He had a slight swimmers build, cute butt, nice on the eyes, funny. I don't know if I would ever date him, but he was atleast nice to look at. There seemed to be easy banter between me and him the few times we spoke/sparred when we were all getting ready to call it a night. James (the mutual friend of K and I that was with her bf & ran into my ex) slept on the chair in K's room, everybody else left at the party (minus her mom, stepdad and baby cousin) were downstairs. There was some jokes about who Andrew (the cute guy) would wake up spooning with, because he didn't have a blanket for a lil bit until K brought a ouple down. She ended up going back down and taking one back for me so we wouldn't have to battle over her blanket. K and I ended up "sharing" her bed. Her boyfriend didn't stay (his mom's rule). I say the "sharing" part lightly, because it was a twin bed, and I had enough to barely cover laying on my side. I woldn't have been the least surprised to have woken up on the floor.
We all woke up early this morning. Most of them were going to sunday school then church service, one was going to work. Me? I woke up, got my shoes and purse, and went home to get some actual sleep (kept waking up to find K sprawled over more of the bed.) My dad thought I was hungover. Truely, I wasn't. I'm not a morning person to begin with, and I don't like sunlight, hense why I'm a pale ginger. But combine the two with slep deprivation? You have what can pass as a hangover I guess.
When I finally came downstairs a couple hours after waking back up, Dad was nowhere to be found. His bedroom light was on, but his car wasn't in the driveway. I think he may be visiting Earl (the dog we're getting as early as tomorrow if he's medically cleared by then) but who knows, he may be at a "nerd Herd" model meeting (modeling kits, like toy airplanes, cars, etc.)
Well, I'lll post again next week, giving progress on the job search, and Earl, and the other parts of my life. Catch you on the flipside :)
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
I went to put a pan away, and couldn't get up!
I am so sore you guys, it's not even funny! Well, it is, if youtake into account what happened in the kitchen a lil bit ago. You see, my mom is at work right now, so my dad asked me to empty the dishwasher after it cooled down. So I was putting away the big pan dad uses to cook chili and stuff in, and I had to kneel down on the floor to put it away. Once I got down there though... I couldn't move! I was sooo sore from moving out of my dorm earlier, and then lugging my stuff into my parents house. I think in the fall and later when I graduate, I'm going to hire movers, lol!
So, as you've probably guessed, I'm done for the summer! Now to find a job! I have a couple leads on some, so here's to hoping I can get one, and help pay for school, since I'm gonna need it. I'm on my own for loans this year (mom's not helping in that department. I appreciate her help these past few years though!)
I was about a half hour late leaving today. My last final (Rhetoric and Reasoning) was supposed to start at noon. The prof showed up 25 minutes late! He then had to have someone else proctor the exam because he had a doctors appointment or something along those lines to get to. I get that he had other things to do, but that test takes a long time. So he told the class we would have until 3 when the proctor had to leave for office hours. After he left, the proctor corrected him, saying he had to leave at 2:30. When 2 rolled around, those of us tha were still left and didn't have another exam to hurry to had to go to another room because another class needed to take their final in that room. I think I did ookay on it, atleast passing. I think I did much better than I did on the midterm, and especially the term project (no one did good on that, but thank god for the curve). Here's to hoping I got somewhat high on the curve :)
I'm going to try and post once a week or so during the summer. I will keep you updated on the job prospects. Well, I'm going to go lie down or something. laters :)
So, as you've probably guessed, I'm done for the summer! Now to find a job! I have a couple leads on some, so here's to hoping I can get one, and help pay for school, since I'm gonna need it. I'm on my own for loans this year (mom's not helping in that department. I appreciate her help these past few years though!)
I was about a half hour late leaving today. My last final (Rhetoric and Reasoning) was supposed to start at noon. The prof showed up 25 minutes late! He then had to have someone else proctor the exam because he had a doctors appointment or something along those lines to get to. I get that he had other things to do, but that test takes a long time. So he told the class we would have until 3 when the proctor had to leave for office hours. After he left, the proctor corrected him, saying he had to leave at 2:30. When 2 rolled around, those of us tha were still left and didn't have another exam to hurry to had to go to another room because another class needed to take their final in that room. I think I did ookay on it, atleast passing. I think I did much better than I did on the midterm, and especially the term project (no one did good on that, but thank god for the curve). Here's to hoping I got somewhat high on the curve :)
I'm going to try and post once a week or so during the summer. I will keep you updated on the job prospects. Well, I'm going to go lie down or something. laters :)
Monday, April 19, 2010
tired of playing the game
I'm so tired right now, i'm not sure any of this is going to make any sense. I was up working on a comm class project until after 4 this morning,t hen didn't get to sleep til around 5 or later because of a housemate's antics and my own internal clock going "let's mess with her a lil more."
This is the last week of school before finals next week. After around Tuesday, I'm back home til early August. Hopefully, I will be able to find a summer job so i'll be able to return to school in the fall. If not S%$^ ! I'm on my own next year, meaning the only help I'll be getting is from financial aid, because mom is not helping with loans this year (the past few years i've gotten a loan and so has she- greatly appreciated.) I thinkk my chances are somewhat good, seeing as most colleges aren't going to be out for the summer until at least a week after me, not including high schoolers. As far as I know, they're out at the end of may/beginning of june. If I hadn't had class and housing signups last wednesday, i might have already had a job lined up for the summer with Target. Instead, I'm hoping they call back, and putting in more applications.
Dad and I haven't spoken for a week, since he went off on me for putting feelers out there about possible dogs. I sent him and mom the possibilities. Not as "get this dog now" but as i looked using the perimeters you set, and at this point this is what is out there. He took it the other way, and bitched me out via facebook.
Well, i better get to finalizing this powerpoint presentation I have to give in class today. I think my dark circles have dark circles...
This is the last week of school before finals next week. After around Tuesday, I'm back home til early August. Hopefully, I will be able to find a summer job so i'll be able to return to school in the fall. If not S%$^ ! I'm on my own next year, meaning the only help I'll be getting is from financial aid, because mom is not helping with loans this year (the past few years i've gotten a loan and so has she- greatly appreciated.) I thinkk my chances are somewhat good, seeing as most colleges aren't going to be out for the summer until at least a week after me, not including high schoolers. As far as I know, they're out at the end of may/beginning of june. If I hadn't had class and housing signups last wednesday, i might have already had a job lined up for the summer with Target. Instead, I'm hoping they call back, and putting in more applications.
Dad and I haven't spoken for a week, since he went off on me for putting feelers out there about possible dogs. I sent him and mom the possibilities. Not as "get this dog now" but as i looked using the perimeters you set, and at this point this is what is out there. He took it the other way, and bitched me out via facebook.
Well, i better get to finalizing this powerpoint presentation I have to give in class today. I think my dark circles have dark circles...
Thursday, April 8, 2010
Sobbing Mess
I am numb right now, which is better than the sobbing mess I was earlier.
I got very little sleep last night because I was working on my phil1105 term project due today (got it done thankfully). Plus I had to wake up to find one last part that was needed for the project plus print everything out. The day was good.. until a little before 3.
I got a call from my dad. He asked me where I was. I told him "the dorm, why?" He then proceeded to tell me Dudley had a stroke earlier in the day. When my dad got home from work, he and my mom shuffled cars, put dudley in the car, and drove to the vet. Usually, when they get to the vet, dudley tries to climb off the front seat and under my dad's legs. he didn't even move this time. They had to get a stretcher to bring him into the vet office. Dad held him as they put him to sleep. According to dad, his health has been deteriorating even more since when I was home two weeks ago. He wasn't eating treats, begging for snacks, more lethargic than he usually was.
I know somewhere in me, that this is a good thing. That he's no longer in pain. That he's now with Lexie in heaven and I'll see him again some day. But right now, all I feel when I allow myself to feel, is the sadness. I wasn't there with him. To add to the sadness- he was put down in the same room we put Lexie (a dog we had since I was 1 1/2 years old, put her down 11 years ago) down in. Plus, it was dad's birthday today. And on top of all that, I'm supposed to go home tomorrow.
I don't know how I'm going to be able to go in that house tomorrow. It won't be the same, feel the same. I just don't know.
I got very little sleep last night because I was working on my phil1105 term project due today (got it done thankfully). Plus I had to wake up to find one last part that was needed for the project plus print everything out. The day was good.. until a little before 3.
I got a call from my dad. He asked me where I was. I told him "the dorm, why?" He then proceeded to tell me Dudley had a stroke earlier in the day. When my dad got home from work, he and my mom shuffled cars, put dudley in the car, and drove to the vet. Usually, when they get to the vet, dudley tries to climb off the front seat and under my dad's legs. he didn't even move this time. They had to get a stretcher to bring him into the vet office. Dad held him as they put him to sleep. According to dad, his health has been deteriorating even more since when I was home two weeks ago. He wasn't eating treats, begging for snacks, more lethargic than he usually was.
I know somewhere in me, that this is a good thing. That he's no longer in pain. That he's now with Lexie in heaven and I'll see him again some day. But right now, all I feel when I allow myself to feel, is the sadness. I wasn't there with him. To add to the sadness- he was put down in the same room we put Lexie (a dog we had since I was 1 1/2 years old, put her down 11 years ago) down in. Plus, it was dad's birthday today. And on top of all that, I'm supposed to go home tomorrow.
I don't know how I'm going to be able to go in that house tomorrow. It won't be the same, feel the same. I just don't know.
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
busy next few weeks
So, just a heads up: I'm going to be somewhat busy the next few wees, with finals in about 3 weeks, term projects due within the next week (including one due tomorrow- EEP!), so I may not have as much time to post on here. And no, I have not forgotten the fictional blog I am going to start. That I will put on hold until after finals week (my school gets out the last week of april, ahead of most other colleges by atleast two weeks from what I've heard) so that it won't be 1)half-assed and 2)distracting me from school.
So, I'm going home this weekend. My dad's birthday is Thursday, so it is kinda a mixture of things- a happy b-day for him, a check up on Dudley, and to see the rest of the family that lives close by, like my sister and her family (Ph, Maddie, possibly Nana if they have her this weekend).
Am I the only one that detests/hates sunlight? I feel like I'm in the minority by hating it. It's not like I can help it. Sunlight causes me to burn, even with sunscreen, and hurts my eyes. Gotta love the fact I have pretty much all the precursors for sin cancer- fair skin, freckles, recessive eye traits (blue/green eyes), recessive hair traits (red/blonde). I made the mistake last summer of going outside without any sunscreen , on a CLOUDY day. What most forget is that even though the sun is "hidden' by the clouds, the rays are actually being magnified through the clouds since clouds are moisture-packed, so it's worse to be out without sunscreen on a cloudy day in the summer. Anyways, that day, I went to a county fair near my grandparents house with my then-boyfriend. By the time we headed back to our hometown, I was radioactive sunburnt lol! I was pulsing with heat, let alone my eyebrows (blonde eyebrows that you can't see without a sunburn, lol) were glowing. The heat of the burn didn't go away for a few days, I couldn't stand hot showers for a week or so, had to take luke-warm/slightly cold showers for a while while the blisters that formed on my shoulders healed. What made it worse is that I had a summer job, and the shirts/brastraps i wore for the job rubbed right on the worst burned parts. I was a crispy critter. It was up there with the worst sunburn I've ever had- summer of 3rd grade, went to camp for about 4-5 days, wore sunscreen- i think spf 15 (it was mandatory by the counselors) everyday, put it on multiple times a day. the last day i was taken to the nurses office and had calamine lotion put on me because i was the color of a dark adobe brick. I was THAT RED. had blisters on both shoulders, one being the size of a quarter. Let's just say aloe vera became my friend that summer, lol.
Well, I'm going to hop off here, because I have class at 2, and the roommate is annoying my just by being in the room. Sunlight + warmer temps + cranky redhead = BADNESS/short fuse. I will try to blog soon, but if not, I'll resume in May.
So, I'm going home this weekend. My dad's birthday is Thursday, so it is kinda a mixture of things- a happy b-day for him, a check up on Dudley, and to see the rest of the family that lives close by, like my sister and her family (Ph, Maddie, possibly Nana if they have her this weekend).
Am I the only one that detests/hates sunlight? I feel like I'm in the minority by hating it. It's not like I can help it. Sunlight causes me to burn, even with sunscreen, and hurts my eyes. Gotta love the fact I have pretty much all the precursors for sin cancer- fair skin, freckles, recessive eye traits (blue/green eyes), recessive hair traits (red/blonde). I made the mistake last summer of going outside without any sunscreen , on a CLOUDY day. What most forget is that even though the sun is "hidden' by the clouds, the rays are actually being magnified through the clouds since clouds are moisture-packed, so it's worse to be out without sunscreen on a cloudy day in the summer. Anyways, that day, I went to a county fair near my grandparents house with my then-boyfriend. By the time we headed back to our hometown, I was radioactive sunburnt lol! I was pulsing with heat, let alone my eyebrows (blonde eyebrows that you can't see without a sunburn, lol) were glowing. The heat of the burn didn't go away for a few days, I couldn't stand hot showers for a week or so, had to take luke-warm/slightly cold showers for a while while the blisters that formed on my shoulders healed. What made it worse is that I had a summer job, and the shirts/brastraps i wore for the job rubbed right on the worst burned parts. I was a crispy critter. It was up there with the worst sunburn I've ever had- summer of 3rd grade, went to camp for about 4-5 days, wore sunscreen- i think spf 15 (it was mandatory by the counselors) everyday, put it on multiple times a day. the last day i was taken to the nurses office and had calamine lotion put on me because i was the color of a dark adobe brick. I was THAT RED. had blisters on both shoulders, one being the size of a quarter. Let's just say aloe vera became my friend that summer, lol.
Well, I'm going to hop off here, because I have class at 2, and the roommate is annoying my just by being in the room. Sunlight + warmer temps + cranky redhead = BADNESS/short fuse. I will try to blog soon, but if not, I'll resume in May.
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