losing friends

So, this blog.. not the happiest as ones that have focused on my neice and nephew (they are so ADORABLE!)

You see, I'm in the process of disolving a friendship. I say "in the process" because ths guy thinks the issues stems from only this past weekend's  "brush off". When it really is from not only a summer of brush offs, but realizing the friendship has faded over the past couple years. (Blame the english major in me for the metaphor) It's like we used to be in the same book but different chapters. Now.. it's like we're in different books from the same author. We have similarities/shared interests, but not enough to keep the friendship intact. It sucks, because I considered him my best guy friend. It's not like I wanna lose a best friend, I find myself internally going back and forth questioning this, but I'm sick of the letdowns. I mean, only once I said "goodbye" to the friendship in a message to him, did he actually put plans out there for us to hang out. The last time we talked was when we ran into each other after I had a job interview, and then it seemed awkward, almost forced somehow.

Work is going well, at both jobs. Both ive momentary troubles, but that happens with any job. School starts up in a couple weeks for me. Should be an interesting last year in college. Then on to bigger and better things.

Sorry for such a brief post. Once all this mess is over with (whether the friendship is dissolved or somehow is kept going) I'll let you guys know. My question for everybody is, have any of you been in a similar situation?

Another week, lack of sleep

I am a tired lady right now. Who knew that sleeping in a lot or even just a little when you have the weekend off makes the rest of the week an insomniac mess? besides last night, i got AT MOST 4 hours of sleep a night. I'm so looking forward to tomorrow night after I get done babysitting. I don't have to work at the store until at least Sunday (I'll find out later today after my 12-3 that might have me stay til 5 shift). So I will get to sleep slightly earlier, plus be able to sleep slightly longer at least Saturday night. Probably not Friday night because J and Ph are coming over to clear out a room that will be Liam's coming this August when both his parents deploy.

I ended up going to K's 4th of July bonfire sunday, which was long. I mean, it had it's moments, like Andrew, the cute friend of K's that she plays magic the gathering with (yes, she's a dork. No, i don't play, so I'm not as big of a dork, lol) Anyways, there was some flirting going on between the two of us.. that was thwarted by his/their friend Goose. This guy's take on friendship is that you're friends with him if he insults/makes fun of you. He's extremely abrasive, and will not let himself be wrong. For example, K, Amanda (mutual friend) and I had come in from petting her neighbor's rottweiler-mastiff mix puppy (7 weeks old, SOOO ADORABLE). Goose made the flippant comment "well, that's a stable dog." I made the comment back that it depends more on the handling of the dog, not the breed itself. He pretty much told me I was wrong, and then sited that German Shepard dogs were psychotic. I went off on him, again siting the handlnig was important, and started to site exampes since I knew of several dogs from that breed, plus a pittbull that were not "psychotic" and went agains breed stereotypes. However, L (K's boyfriend) cut me off. K was defending me and also going off on Goose for a statement he made to her stepdad earlier in the night. L's way of defusing the situation was to "suggest" that I didn't need to be in the room, that I could leave the room. This is also the same guy that after he ran into my ex at a Gamestop, invited him to K's grad party even though my ex had claimed he hated K. Yes, their friends, but still, kinda rude. The reason he didn't suggest Goose leave was because they were about to start a game that's similar to Risk/magic.

I was ready to deck Goose. Andrew slightly took everybody's minds off the argument with a "size of his anatomy" joke. I went outside by the waning fire to calm down. I had intended to spend the night even though I wasn't drinking, but decided to call it a night and leave, because I knew if I stayed til the game was over (it was a little after 3 when I left and they were just getting ready to start!) I would end up decking Goose.

Babysitting this week has been okay. The oldest kid is starting to have more attitude than the 5 year old, but is quickly defused.

I know I should touch on the Kevin subject. I kinda put a feeler out there, suggesting that he come hang out at K's bonfire (she had already invited him). He declined, because he was having his own party. No inviting me to his, or whatever. I'm going to back off the attempting to see where things go for a while, mainly because I'm only in town for another month and I'm not doing anything long-distance again. Maybe when I'm in town for long periods of time I might see where things are, but right now dating's on the back burner.

Well, I have to go get ready for my shift at Gymboree. I'll try and write more often, promise :)

matchmaking relatives, UGH!

So...J and her husband have gotten it in their head that I should get togetther with H's brother in-law Kevin. He's a year younger than me. I've known him most of my life- when we were younger, we were on a local summer swim team together. Ya, we get along easily. J doesn't know that towards the end of high school, I was contmplating getting together with him, but that didn't pan out. Now, They've planted the damn seed in my head again! Especially with when I was holding H's son Liam yesterday and Kev came over and barely touched both my arms while paying attention to Liam...

If it was a year from now, I would've  possibly cosidered it. But not now. I have a year left in school, so I'll not be in twon for most of the months from August-May. I'm not going through the long-distance stuff again.

Work at both the kids retail store and the babysitting gig is going well. I lack sleep most days, especially with my slight case of insomnia, so caffiene is my friend, lol.

Let me pose the question to you guys. Should I attempt to see if Kev is interested, or just let it go for now?