Tough Weekend

So, last week (from wednesday on) was hell for me. you see, I should never read Anne Sexton and Sylvia Plath for the same class on the same day.. it tends to be a somewhat bad omen. Last year, on the day when that happened, my boyfriend at the time broke up with me. This year, I got a call that day from my dad saying we may have to put or dog down that weekend. Needless to say, I was a wreck the rest of the week. I went home that weekend to see him and everybody. We took him to the vet. Luckily, the vet wanted to try a liquid pain med on him, to see if that helped. It did that night. Next day, he was sick puppy (one of the side effects of the meds was stomach irritation- CHECK). He's bounced back since then, so he's not going anywhere for the time being. After the vet visit, Mom, J, Maddy, Ph and Aiy (J's stepdaughter) went to H's in-laws to let them meet Maddy. We found out when we got there, we found a surprise-- Pa (H's husband) was there. Turns out, he had flown back that weekend (without H, seeing as she's in her last trimester) to ride his motorcycle back down to the base. Seeing as both him and H are pissed at me, it was awkward to be in the same room as him.

I found out later from J and Ph why H and Pa are mad at me. Part of it i already knew (the phone call suggesting she call J before she had the baby, calling her out on her bs excuse.) She apparently told J that I bitched her out on the phone when I called her. That is not the case. I suggested she call J, and when H said no and gave her excuses, I said "Fine, Bye," and hung up before I went off on her. Apparently she also was pissed at me over a status message I had from early March. You see, H and her husband created a facebook page for their unborn child. At the time that I posted the message, I hadn't heard the explanation of why they created it (they're both deploying a couple of months after their child is born, so it's to keep tabs on him.) the status message was something along the lines of (i guess im the lesser of the crazies in my family- and then i listed them creating the fb page and my mom's obsession for it as well.. H took that, in her preggo hormonal state, as me calling her crazy. As in a derogatory way instead of the joking/comical way.

You see, I call myself crazy, in a jokingly way. I also call myself a Bitch, cuz frankly, I can be one. I was not calling her insane in a mean way. Should have stayed out of the whole calling J? probably. My motives in making that suggestion to her were that she could empathize with J since she was also pregnant. Was my timing in calling her out on her bs good?  No, seeing as she has a stressful job, getting ready to deploy, all while getting ready to bring a child into the world in the next couple months that she won't have much time to bond with. But was I being mean and malicious towards her in any of my actions? ABSOLUTELY NOT.

My problem right now is whether or not I should try to clear the air before she gives birth or wait til she's less hormonal and someone able to hear the truth. I just.. I don't know if I should wait, but at the same time, I know if I try and explain my motives now and try and clear the air, her high hormone levels due to pregnancy are going to misconstrue it.

So there's my dilemma. Now what to do about my degree audit...